i just realized i do not like watching too many movies, especially those with influence from the west.

somehow they depict sex as something too loose and marriage looks vulnerable and fragile and even though you might have everything you dream of of an impeccable family, your "thing" in our pants still wriggle out to taste the forbidden fruits.

i feel so darn insecure and uncertain of eternal partnership.

what i feel is, do what you want to do when you are single, but when you are not, stick it to the same "hole" or the same "bird".

pardon my crudeness.