a random thought struck me as i sit next to my windows, glazing out at the beautiful warm sky, drinking my manuka honey drink which sealion bought for me.

everyone deserves a second chance.

everyone makes mistakes.

everyone has a history.

it is not as if something bad has happened in my life which has caused this sudden out of the blue idea to appear in my mind but maybe because everything for me now is going back on track and i finally realized what is more consequential, and what is not.

nothing can change whatever that has happened, but the future is in the grasp of our own hands.

maybe the world will become a better place to live in if we all learn from the silly mistakes we made and understand the true meaning of what forgiving and forgetting is all about.

i enjoy and embrace my new life as Teddy Christian Zeng.

sometimes, things may not necessarily appear gloomy even though all deem to be negative because out there in the grey clouds, there is always a silver lining shining its way through. out of the all the mishap, you will get to see the that there is always hope.

from 1 Corinthians: there are three things that last, faith, hope and love; and the greatest of these is love.

life is disgusting, especially when it is plagued with examination questions that are almost implausible to solve.

i thought i made the wrongest decision in my life, and that was to take up the path of being an engineer. if i had knew that the fate of it would be so disastrous, i would have taken up some communication course, and not forcing my way through to follow into the footsteps of my beloved father.

i guess my results for this semester would be an easy word to describe and it would be, "screwed".

now, i only wish my winter holidays would drop by faster so that i do not have to breathe each day with stress and depression.

:(

two more papers, and two more disappointment.

i wish someone would kidnap me by before Friday so that i can skip my upcoming killer papers which are probably going to send me straight to hell for my immolation.

how embarrassing.

i think i am going to be grilled so badly on the firestones that i will most likely be beyond recognition.

anyway, thank you you Christopher for being my god parent and came for my baptism mass.

you were fantastic. although you stood up at times you were not supposed to and sat down at times you were not supposed to.

haha.

anyway, for the kidnappers', please kindly release me by 8th december so that i can go for my holiday at Vancouver!

whee!

i tested mummy's reaction today.

outcome : Disastrous.

me: "妈，我退学来帮你做你的生意好吗？“

mummy gave me the almost devouring me expression : "你在跟我开玩笑吗？” (if only i had my polaroid or video camera to record down that instant.)

me : "当然啦！“

actually, i meant it.

darn.

attempt failed. i have to pull it through this arduous journey of mechanics and free body diagrams.

i'm vexed, frustrated, livid and jaded.

ARGH.

i detest studying.

it makes me fat as i keep eating to keep my eyes wide open.

it makes me feel imbecile because nothing appears comprehensible.

it makes me feel like i am greying.

CURSE.

examinations are commencing in less than two weeks time and i am still not feeling the kick yet.

darn.

my favourite phrase to my friends now each time i "attempt" to start studying, "let's quit school and start some business."

everyone laughed.

kns.

school is a total bitch.

TY sealion.

a quiet getaway from Singapore to celebrate my birthday.

the surprise was the stay at a seaside resort at Desaru, Johore Bahru. Although the sea is nothing comparable to those that one can experience at Maldives whereby the waters are so blue and crystal clear, but i supposed, it was good enough, to make me smile.

there were no loud speakers flaunting its bass and abilities to deafen one's ears, but there were noises of the sea gushing against the shores. there were no strong wind breathing from the air-condition that chills the entire place, but there were the sea breeze which gave the air around an unique scent. there were no crowds and loud celebration, just us, walking by the beach.

i had one of my dream fulfilled in this trip.

i finally get to see a full rainbow right ahead in front of me, on the beach. it was so resplendent and somehow, i just cannot recall when was the last time i ever saw the seven colors displaying its beauty in front of me. in fact, i had never seen one full rainbow, whereby i could see both ends and miraculously, i get to share and catch the glimpse of this special moment with you.

life had suddenly took a sharp turn and became slower and i could not sense the time ticking away. the day and night walks by the sea was an inexplicable joy. for a moment, i wished i never had to return to the callous reality for this place somehow barricades all my sorrows and troubles away.

i am so in love with the hungry sea, the glaring sun, the quiet moon, and the glittering stars.

thank you for making a cake for me.
thank you for the wallet you got for me in August. (a present in advance.)
thank you for the bose sound system you got for my new room.
thank you for the birthday card you wrote for me outside the lecture theatre.
thank you for everything you have done so far to make me smile.
thank you sealion.


PS: the black pepper crab has caused me stomach cramps for days:(

thank you all for making my birthday a memorable one.

although it was not exactly so much of a BLAST, or a one week's celebration, i was glad that i had a simple and a happy one.

Sealion was away but promised me a surprise when returned. :)

i love the three huge spongebob helium balloons- thank you Zx
i love the polaroid camera - thank you Iris, J, H
i love the customize cap - thank you R
i love the puzzle made up with my photos - thank you Wy
i love the cash rewards - thank you mummy, daddy, kor and jie.


lastly, i love those sweet messages from those who had sent me their kind blessings:)

thank you all.

i waited for yours, you did not.

and so as i thought this was one of the best opportunity we had left but i supposed we will just be this way as you wish.