I SWEAR I WILL NEVER USE THE HANDICAPPED TOILET EVER.

THAT DARN LOCK WAS SPOILT.

i was defecating comfortably on the seat with my pants off, some woman opened my door and she saw my BUTT.

my god.

i FEEL VIOLATED.

lesson learnt.

shit smartly.

i think i have an overdosed of caffeine.

i am so exhausted and the deprivation of sleep makes the effect of the coffee almost negligent.

i feel like vomiting.

i detest school, quizzes, reports, assignments, and projects.

school is a bitch.

i love spontaneous ideas.

just like how we decided to forgo the two movie tickets we have bought and drive to Kuala Lumpur at midnight.

it was insane and we nearly had to sleep on the streets and the traffic police was been anal, trying to blackmail me just because i was going in the opposite direction. darn the stupid and almost none existence road signs. thankfully the hotel was good, and almost comparable to Ritz Carlton, one of my favorite hideout in Singapore.

and guess what, the best catch was, the stay was only S$148.

YAY!

another happy day:)

Singapore is becoming so dull and unappealing.

you made me smile again.

thank you.

i knew i was expecting a form of surprise, but i could not figure out what it exactly was until i saw what was laid on my car's windscreen.

thank you for your silly gift.

:)

NUGENO bioessence!

so exciting!

my photoshoot for NUGENO is out and there you go, it's so small, i almost looked insignificant. but the nugeno representatives were really nice and suggested that they might want me to do some form of "selling" the product with 林峰 when he comes to Singapore year end!

whee!

anyone can see, my brains are officially dead.

because i can actually type three entries within a matter of hours instead of forcing the complex knowledge of the physics and etc into my own personal memory card that is attached at the back of my head.

bravo.

i miss my BED.

i just realized i do not like watching too many movies, especially those with influence from the west.

somehow they depict sex as something too loose and marriage looks vulnerable and fragile and even though you might have everything you dream of of an impeccable family, your "thing" in our pants still wriggle out to taste the forbidden fruits.

i feel so darn insecure and uncertain of eternal partnership.

what i feel is, do what you want to do when you are single, but when you are not, stick it to the same "hole" or the same "bird".

pardon my crudeness.

i'm getting too old to do the once thought to be fun study plan; overnight camping at some fast food eateries to do mugging.

perhaps it has nothing to do with the jumping of numbers as the years go by, but just myself losing my focus, and my aim to succeed with better grades.

R and i are thinking of quitting school.

and i thought maybe it is time i should steer my vision to my mother's business, her home bakery which is a rather lucrative deal. after all, Food and beverage trait has always been a good earn.

then again, i am certain my folks would want to attend my convocation ceremony.

BANG. there goes the bursting of my dreaming bubble. :(

kill me.

but maybe all hope is not gone because my lecturer just told me that half the cohort tried escaping from the math quiz.

so there is the slight silver lining in the clouds that i am not the only one who is struggling to breathe in MAE.

maybe.

operation mugging was supposed to kick off today.

but the most unfortunate event had to take off and now i am down with swallowing three pills after each meal, or alternatively, every six hours, to keep the heat burning in my body sustain.

i am having fever.

38.0 was the highest it went.

the giddiness made my studying almost stagnant.

all seemed to stuck outside my brains.

i loathe falling ill.

darn the weather.

darn the heat.

i want to be in the north pole, where the the snow is, with the polar bear, and of course the sealion.
sigh:(

if i am a millionaire myself, with an infinite of money for me to spend, i would buy a ticket to fly each time you are required to be in the skies.

or wait, maybe, i would just buy you back from that organization, and kidnap you in my wardrobe.

the bouquet, is all i can give now.

an intention to speak.

i want no celebration although the day which i was so excited about one year back is coming so close. somewhere around in my fried brains, i just felt like there is no more reason for me to throw a drunkard's party.

i supposed i am no longer drinking my guts out and dancing my butts off. the blasted birthday which i had been waiting for is ceased.

sian.

i feel so unsurprised.

thank you for throwing me a memorable one week's party last year. i just realized i hadn't sincerely thank the fantastic four for that.

maybe i will just go to the airport and check out any available flights to fly me away depending on god's decision for me.

surprise me, god.

Manual cars can a chore to drive.

but then again, if it's the "seed of love", maybe it can be endurable like they say.

see the new car we invest and deal with the risks.

intriguing.

Darn.

my friend just called me Ris Low just because i asked if i had to wear Nike Shoes + Attire if i were to take part in the Nike Live Run.

Argh.

classic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FrrIgR8xkwU

just saw this really nice clip from my friend's facebook profile.

it's so beautiful.

:)

a sudden insane impulse thought, and i stripped my hair so short it almost appears bald.

my friends thought that i was a jailbird just released, the others thought i was an army boy, while the rest was just pure devilish laughter.

the best i have heard so far, the only one in fact, was that my childhood days were returned to me.

i guess i have fallen into the indefinite abyss of severe depression after i see my personal reflection in my mirror which almost disintegrated into millions of pieces hanging from the bathroom in my room.

and my resolution is, i will ensure myself to fit into my headgear for the next two months before hair starts to grow and i look more human than an ape trying to devour all the bananas hanging on the tress and catching fleas for my similar species on the trunks.

Sea lion was so kind and silly, offering to go bald too to make me feel better so as to let me know that i am never to be alone in the rocking boat. although i know it is an implausible thing to ever happen, i supposed the thought itself was well spoken of.

thank you.

sometimes when it comes to loving someone, it is not about seeing someone's perfection and swooning over it, but it is more of coming to the acceptance of that someone's flaws. it is an easy chore to come to an agreement with someone's positive points but it is also easier to get put off with just one tiny winy little blemish and that is when you come to the unkind realization that maybe you just did not love that shadow casting next to you enough to be able to share the same bed, the same dining table, the same path of life together till the end of time.

this is how the magical love works. everything that was once unbearable, becomes endurable in your complicated lonely heart. every act which appears imbecile to the entire world, will deem silly and adorable to you, and only in your eyes.

love, is an inexplicable emotion which till now, leaves me with numerous question marks on how it even exists. but then again, although it is still an unresolved issue to many of us, i supposed god has his reasons to implant it in us and thankfully, with it, our lives become slightly more adventurous and happier. although i cannot deny through the walks of our lives, thorns of the roses do prick, but i always had this belief that someone out there, at the other end of the world awaits for your search, and your hand.

never give up, because each obstacles teach you lessons you need to know, to meet the immaculate one who will be willing to walk down this aisle with you indefinitely. after all, nothing falls off from the sky freely.

i hope my optimism will keep me surviving long because i know there was once, i lost faith.

on a separate issue, i really wish i could turn back time to the happy times whereby four of us were together. but i guess that this time round, i would rather put a halt to all and stop breathing as it appears to me, all is fruitless to me.

all the best to you, and your future endeavors.

i guess this is right.

"what is changed, cannot be undone. what's undone, cannot be changed."

fly, and soar as high as you can because you should know that your potential is beyond that boundless sky. do not let others distort your judgment. anyway it is good knowing that you are doing great.

:)