an intention to speak.

i want no celebration although the day which i was so excited about one year back is coming so close. somewhere around in my fried brains, i just felt like there is no more reason for me to throw a drunkard's party.

i supposed i am no longer drinking my guts out and dancing my butts off. the blasted birthday which i had been waiting for is ceased.

sian.

i feel so unsurprised.

thank you for throwing me a memorable one week's party last year. i just realized i hadn't sincerely thank the fantastic four for that.

maybe i will just go to the airport and check out any available flights to fly me away depending on god's decision for me.

surprise me, god.