for the NTU people who gossips.

this entry is dedicated to some of the people in my school and faculty who takes gossiping, rumors spreading participation and backstabbing as part of their daily activities. apparently, i am one of the targeted "victim" in their extra curriculum venture and i think maybe this happens because it does spice up some of their lives, to make their mundane life slightly more intriguing. after all, humans' mouth, is probably one of the most un-ethical section of us, because many people do speak without having the contents flowing through their supposedly functioning brains and they enjoy mocking and talking about others, but forgot to laugh at themselves.

just in case if i do sound as if i am agitated, or livid, please do not get offended for people whom you know i am pointing my fingers at. i do not think that i will be especially inclined to allow my currently happy mood, be dampened by your selfish acts. in a way or another, i am just trying to convey my message in amusement with your due interest in my personal, and social life. after all, you cannot sense my tone through these digital words that are formed on your computer screens.:)

actually, there are things which revolve around me, and i do take note of it. being negligent, or ignorant, does not mean i am entirely oblivious of what is happening around me, it is just that, i have adopted an attitude, which is not to be bothered by all these trivial matters but today, i just want you to know that, i do know who you are and what you say. one side note for you, do not self presumed, because assumptions are after all just baseless facts.

in case if you people do not truly apprehend, i decided to tag along the definition of rumors for you from the world wide recognized website, dictionary.com, to let you know what it means, and how meaningless is it for you to be talking about things that are non-existence, and probably dumb.

rumors = a story or statement in general circulation without confirmation or certainty as to facts.

i decided to BOLD certain adjectives just in case you cannot grasp the main highlights that will explain that following word attached above. :)

i think that if people are certain about facts, they should no longer have anymore questions, and bother friends around me for answers because it only proves to others that you are not. personally, i always think that if i have any questions which i am doubtful of, i will approach my friend to clear my inquiries, after all, we are friends, and there should be nothing to be ashamed of to ask. if my friend refused to tell me, i would solely respect him/her because everyone has their prerogative to choose if they would want to speak, and i have absolutely no appanage to intrude or encroach into his/her life. for example, if you think that i am gay, please ask me, because i think i know best of my personal sexual preference.

and for your information, i am just disturbed by your source of tips about me, being so affirmative, if you tell me your friend, who is probably a guy, had sex with me before, date me before, then i will say yeah, i am probably gay. but if he/she did not,
and yet has strong confirmations,then, well, i am amazed with their spot on intelligence, and knowing things that even i do not know of myself. perhaps i need to purchase one of their magical crystal balls so that i can prognosticate into people's lives and into the future, knowing who i should beware of.

let me further educate you although i am in no position, i will just like to question how you can possibly conclude my orientation if i am not seeing anyone, or date anyone, or even like anyone. unless the hands that i do hold onto now is a male and the lips which i caress with belongs to an identical sex, then i will gladly admit that yes, i am perhaps, in love with penises. if not, what makes you think that i do not have secret fantasies on vaginas, because i find them as delirious as other guys do. (pardon me for being so direct for i think being honest is going to make you understand.)

if there comes a day, i do fall for any guys, or do have a boyfriend, i will be proud of it, and i will tell my friends and invite them to my private wedding dinner and celebration because i never thought of myself being anti-homosexual. ( you guys will be the first to receive my invitation cards as you all kind of act like some paparazzi. anyway, no worries, i can afford the extra table costs.)after all, god has given us free will to choose, people can choose to walk on whichever path they deemed best for them, and we are in no position to judge others on their decisions made.

just for laughs, "why you so kapo, my life leh, not yours lor. please lar, you interested in me is it, you want to do up a biography for me huh? i gay or lesbian cannot huh? you want to set up a anti homosexxxuuallllll club is it?"

for my friends who do walk on paths which are indifferent, i will always give them my support as long they are definite of what they want, because this is what friendship really is. i trust that they are mature enough to cogitate on independent issues in their journey of life.

i once thought that rumors and all these backstabbing, are just childish acts of kids who seek general fun in secondary school or even junior college. (you know like the chick flicks movies whereby we laugh at how bimbo they are?) but i did not know, these display of act, still persists itself in university whereby many of us, should and behave like an adult by now.

i cannot blame anyone because humans are eventually still filled with flaws. there is no impeccable person in existence so if you think you are, think again.

honestly, i have always intended to lie low in school because i do not need unnecessary attention. but then again, if you think that i am nobody, trust me people, you are stepping on the wrong foot. you will be surprised of my connections, and what i can do after all the thousand of contacts in my hand phone alone is not considered a small number [omg, i totally love my i-phone because i can store so many numbers:)]. i can instantly make you famous throughout all the varsity institutions without any sweat if that is what you desire but of course liked i said, i am not as childish as you are. it is easy for me to dig out who these rascals or menace, but then why should i waste my efforts on you when you are just some SMALL people with very TINY hearts.

the world has changed, and i think that it is time, you should step out of your pint-sized well, to see that the sky is so vast, and great. maybe then, you will come to the realization that you have being so myopic for the past 20 years of living and i think it is never too late to find out before you do return to ashes.

the problem with many people is, they are always too contented with whatever they have, and they refused to step out of their comfort zones, thinking that whatever they have now is suffice. but one day when you are near your end, and you start to reflect on your lives, you will come to regret, and remorse that you had not live your life to the fullest.

life is not about gossiping, and talking about others, and backstabbing them, it is about using your five senses which you are endowed from god, to feel this world, and to make a difference if you can. i believe that the almighty up there, did not create us for such insignificant acts.

start growing up my dear children, i hope you see the light on the other end for the light house is still emanating and it will guide you. hopefully, you will be enlighten one day soon.:)

it just keeps me wondering how much you gain from all these small talks and speculation about others when you cannot even handle your personal life.:) people always complain about others, but failed to realize that they themselves are doing likewise. this is such a huge ironical fact that tickles me. why is it that people loves making themselves happy on the expense of others. mankind is truly selfish and sometimes, jealousy does kill.:)

just for you guys," ok la ok lar, i am gay lar ok? happy not?"

now can we stop since that is what you all think i am and hope to hear. do remember to cut and paste this blog address to let others know too and share your handsome joy. meanwhile i can earn some from the advertisement others might click on. whee!:)

PS: for those who are upset about this post, you can feel free to approach me but do not leave anonymous messages on my tagboard, cos it further proves to me that you are cowardly, and childish. and for those whom i know of, do not worry and run away, because i do not detest anybody. i will still talk to you, and be your friend, because i am not like you. i have got nothing to be guilty of.:)))) )